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i'm well on the way to actually completing the biggest decision i've made this year. as of yesterday i have enrolled to start back at university in the hope that i can come away with an undergraduate degree that could lead to a future in science and technology. i'm in the process of sorting out the final details and will have to wait until closer to the beginning of semester two before i can sign on for classes, but i'm acknowledged as a student in the eyes of the university.
it's kind of nerve wracking actually. i've not studied for about 4 or 5 years and here i am about to dive right into the deep end with complex and involved subjects. i'm looking forward to it all though. i've been somewhat excited by the lead up and was more than chuffed with myself when i clicked on the 'enrol in courses' link and added my choices.
there's something about this time around at uni that feels different. i feel i'm more focused on what i want to do (not that i'm ever wholly focused on anything, this is just more concentrated than most things apart from music) this time round. i'm even looking forward to devising a study plan! five or more years ago, i would NEVER have dreamed of such a thing. but i'm determined to succeed and in order to do so, i need to discipline myself. and considering discipline is something i completely suck at, and hate with more passion than all the negative terms in the world could muster, this is going to be quite a challenge for me. but i thrive on challenge and so this should make my bits all moist.
this decision to head back into study did not come easily though. i've been talking about it for close on two years. i'm not entirely sure what it was that made me focus on where i'm planning to go, but it may have had something to do with Pots and his ability to listen to me vent and ramble inanely before steering me onto the road i should have been on in the beginning. his help and support is going to be invaluable to me during my time as a student. his patience (and mine) will be tested thoroughly as i struggle along the studential roadway. the monkey is going to have me at my wits end more so than not as well. but it'll be worth it.
the day i finally get my bachelors degree will be a monumental event for me, as i'll be the first person in my family to have one. both my parents and my brother never finished high school. dad went to grade 11 (though he could have left earlier as the times permitted), mum barely started due to a breakdown and my brother couldn't handle it due to disability. at 18 i had the highest educational qualifications in my family as i had completed my senior certificate. getting my bachelor would mean more to me than the paper it's printed on. it would mean that i have achieved something for my family, almost as a justification for all the work my parents have put in to raise me. sounds like a bit of a cliche, but that's how i see it. i also see it as a means of breaking the cycle. it will mean i have achieved something greater than i could have imagined. despite all the obstacles i have come across, finishing this would, once and for all, prove that i'm not simply all talk and little or no action.
the future is still uncertain, as i don't know where this degree will take me. but at least the next 5 or so years are going to help me shape it somewhat better. and don't forget, i've still always got my music and writing to help keep me sane if the science gets a little heavy - which it will.
til next....
~Kits~ (it feels good for the first time in a long time)
it's kind of nerve wracking actually. i've not studied for about 4 or 5 years and here i am about to dive right into the deep end with complex and involved subjects. i'm looking forward to it all though. i've been somewhat excited by the lead up and was more than chuffed with myself when i clicked on the 'enrol in courses' link and added my choices.
there's something about this time around at uni that feels different. i feel i'm more focused on what i want to do (not that i'm ever wholly focused on anything, this is just more concentrated than most things apart from music) this time round. i'm even looking forward to devising a study plan! five or more years ago, i would NEVER have dreamed of such a thing. but i'm determined to succeed and in order to do so, i need to discipline myself. and considering discipline is something i completely suck at, and hate with more passion than all the negative terms in the world could muster, this is going to be quite a challenge for me. but i thrive on challenge and so this should make my bits all moist.
this decision to head back into study did not come easily though. i've been talking about it for close on two years. i'm not entirely sure what it was that made me focus on where i'm planning to go, but it may have had something to do with Pots and his ability to listen to me vent and ramble inanely before steering me onto the road i should have been on in the beginning. his help and support is going to be invaluable to me during my time as a student. his patience (and mine) will be tested thoroughly as i struggle along the studential roadway. the monkey is going to have me at my wits end more so than not as well. but it'll be worth it.
the day i finally get my bachelors degree will be a monumental event for me, as i'll be the first person in my family to have one. both my parents and my brother never finished high school. dad went to grade 11 (though he could have left earlier as the times permitted), mum barely started due to a breakdown and my brother couldn't handle it due to disability. at 18 i had the highest educational qualifications in my family as i had completed my senior certificate. getting my bachelor would mean more to me than the paper it's printed on. it would mean that i have achieved something for my family, almost as a justification for all the work my parents have put in to raise me. sounds like a bit of a cliche, but that's how i see it. i also see it as a means of breaking the cycle. it will mean i have achieved something greater than i could have imagined. despite all the obstacles i have come across, finishing this would, once and for all, prove that i'm not simply all talk and little or no action.
the future is still uncertain, as i don't know where this degree will take me. but at least the next 5 or so years are going to help me shape it somewhat better. and don't forget, i've still always got my music and writing to help keep me sane if the science gets a little heavy - which it will.
til next....
~Kits~ (it feels good for the first time in a long time)
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