perhaps elephants and bunnies should not be permitted to turtle.

in the past few days i've learned something about someone (who shall remain nameless, but some of you may know) that i feel i should have picked up on a long time ago. i will put it down to simply not really knowing them very well, only ever really having had a few random hellos and short conversations with them here and there over the last 3 or 4 years. but it really shouldn't come as that much of a surprise to me to discover that this person is a coward. a deceitful, conceited coward.

yet i was surprised.

and now, in retrospect, i sense i may have known, but chose to ignore it for the reason i didn't care. i had no reason to care. my relationship with this person was so impersonal i was often surprised when they acknowledged me at all. but i had heard things. and knowing how a rumour mill works, i tended to take what i heard very lightly. but is interesting how you are able to see things clearer when you look back on them when you learn things about people.

i was also surprised to discover that someone else, who i thought stronger than that, went along with this cowardice for reasons only they know, and i will not speculate on. the surprise was not because i didn't know there was something going on, it was surprise at finding out why and for how long.

i am somewhat dumbfounded.

perhaps naivete is to blame. i don't know.

people are complicated.

til next....
~Kits~ (letting thoughts dribble)